Tuesday, August 02, 2005

The Unknown...

Does anyone out there dislike the unknown like me? I know that there is a purpose to us not knowing the future...in a world such as we are in today we have enough information coming at us every day, but I guess sometimes I just wish I had the answers to questions, but I guess that comes with time. Questions I am currently pondering:

-Did I pass the test? I took a challenge exam to test out of a class at school and it was not what I expected. I studied the course outline but the test questions were totally out in left field. I will know tomorrow the outcome. Praying for the passing 80%.
-Do I want to commit to a new school year as a staff volunteer with Campus Life through Youth for Christ? I loved the time with the high schoolers over the past two years. I am really debating on returning in a few weeks for the new school year.
-Will my school schedule work out? After this quarter I should only have three classes and then graduate in January. I am just worried about the three classes being offered when I need them so I can graduate on time.
-What does the future housing arrangement look like for me? My current roommate will be moving out and I don't know who will be moving in or if I will stay living alone for a bit.
-Will I be well soon? I have been feeling ill since Sunday night...still not feeling the best. I wish I knew how long I will feel icky.
-What does my career look like for me? I love my current company I work for. My boss (the owner) is an amazing friend, mentor, and father figure. I love working for and with him. I love me job...although very stressful. I guess my question is...is this it? Is this the job I was finally looking for that I will spend my life at? At the age of 21 I am already feeling like I am ready to settle down...for those of you who know me I am a man who has had MANY jobs!
-How can I overcome my shortfalls? There are many areas in my life that I want to improve at with personal struggles and relationships with people. I guess I wish I had answers to how I could become a better man of God.

I guess the questions could go on and on if I wanted to keep thinking...but I am tired so I will wrap it up for now. I guess I need to learn the patience is a vertue and answers come in due time...not on my schedule. Good night and God Bless.

D~