Last night was rather scary for me. I was feeling a pain in a certain part of my body...well lets be real, my man area. The pain had been present for a few days but I wasn't alarmed since from time to time I experience pain from my hernia surgery some 15 months ago. However, this time the pain felt different. I ended up finding a lump of sorts. I was alarmed, yet I told myself that maybe it wasn't really there since it wasn't visible. I had a pre-scheduled appointment with my doctor for this morning since I am still not completely well from bronchitis that started some two weeks ago, so I told myself I would have the doc take a look to be safe. Well, I had a pretty crappy night sleep, I toss and turned, got up about four different times for something to drink. Those of you who know me, know that I hardly wake during the night. I couldn't help but to start thinking "what if's". Of course my mind turned to the negatives and I started to feel worried.
This morning my heart was pounding as I was waiting to see the doctor. He checked out my bronchitis and found that my asthma is now acting up and he doesn't think there is still an infection but just breathing difficulties. Thank you California air for allowing me to have asthma. He then checked out my other issues and confirmed that there is a lump. He then instructed me that we will need an ultrasound and he would like me to see a specialist. My doc is a great guy but didn't really give me details as to what could be going on.
So, it is the end of the day, I am sitting here in my office still filled with a sense of uncertainty. I am anxious to know what is going on with me. I keep telling myself that everything is going to be fine. I have been faced with many health issues in my short 23 years of life and this is just another one that will be taken care of. Through this I am holding strong, I believe God will see me through this just as He always does. I'd being lying if I didn't say that this new discovery has left me clinging to Him much more than I have in the past few weeks. Isn't it odd how we choose to be close to God when we feel like we are faced with a problem?
Please pray for me in the coming days. I have an appointment on Thursday with the specialist...crazy how they get you in quick when they think something is up. I have an ultrasound next week. Hopefully sooner...rather than later...there will be some clear answers as to what is going on. I pray that God gives me the strength to carry on and to not let this put a damper on my life.
In Him,
Derek
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Okay, look at the bright side. Say it is the worst possible news and they "remove half of the 'man area'", someday when you are married and have your quiver full of kids and decide to 'stop the flow' the surgury will only take half the time of most men, and the recovery will be twice as fast! There is a silver lining in every fearful moment! Know you will be lifted up this week! BUNCHES! You are loved man!
With you in His Ministry,
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